Do you see what I see?
Ever since my post on Monday I’ve been thinking a lot about perception. When I look at the things that I have done in the past that have been successful, my first inclination is to list, with great description and detail, the obstacles that I see or the difficulties that I might encounter if I choose to revisit the same strategies. WHY DO I DO THAT? Is it some form of protection—if I make myself and everyone else aware of the difficulties that lie ahead I get some sort of pass?
In reality, I believe that how we view things makes ALL the difference in how we experience them. Why then, would I choose to focus on the fact that there have been some difficulties associated with participating in these weight loss challenges?
Why do I focus on the fact that it is hard to run in a race or a competition with other people (both fit and fat) and consistently come in last when I could focus on the fact that I did something that was truly physically hard for me and I succeeded. I finished.
Why do I spend time fretting about how much longer it takes me to run a mile (or walk it while trying not to cry) than my teammates when I could focus on the fact that I was actually able to run the distance this time rather than walk, or on how much it meant to me that my team came back and ran with me the final several yards so that I wasn’t the singular focus of everyone else when I crossed the finish line last?
Why do I keep beating myself up when I realize how much harder these challenges will be now that I’ve gained 81 pounds, when I should be focused on the fact that I know this will help me get those 81 pounds and more off?
Why do I choose to dwell on how embarrassing it will be to have my weight and picture posted on a website anyone can see, especially when many will realize how much I’ve gained when I can focus on the fact that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks—it only matters what I am willing to do now with the circumstances that are presented to me at this time?
Well—guess what? I don’t have a single answer to any of these questions that is good enough to keep me focused on what is hard or what is embarrassing or what seems impossible. I choose to focus on the positive.
I keep trying to talk myself out of joining this challenge at the gym. I’ve had a myriad of excuses, as you can see. However, if I can come up with the entry fee (which will be difficult) and they still have slots available at the times I can accommodate with my work schedule, I’m going to throw my hat in the ring. I know it will be a format where I can develop some good habits. I’ll be required to go to team training 5 days per week and can use this to establish some regular exercise habits. We will be required to journal our food—they will check our journals weekly. I hate writing down what I eat, which is probably why I still struggle so much. I’ve heard 80% of the battle is what we eat.
I found a good quote that I think speaks to what I’m learning about perception: “Change the way you look at things and the things you look at change.” — Dr. Wayne Dyer
Thoughts of another challenge filled me with dread earlier this week. With a new perspective I’m hopeful and excited. Bring it on!